2002-05-06 | CHANCES ARE

there was this girl i met like a year ago...and i thought she might end up being something more then a friend to me.

it just so happened i met somebody else at the same time on the computer, and she ended up being more then a friend, and being like EVERYTHING. she was so "the one", so fast. i can't believe i've known her a year already. it's funny how i met a girl in "real life" at the same time as i met someone on the computer, and the one on the computer just was so perfect. you'd think it would be more likely to happen the other way. meeting someone in person in the same town is alot more simple, and practical, but it doesn't mean shit in the world of true love. sometimes it doesn't seem like it's been a year, and sometimes it seems like we've known each other forever.

But, anyway, the night after i met the other girl, who ended up just being a good friend, i wrote a couple songs about her... I think she was my only female friend at the time, so of course i had to fall for her quick. I think she got a little jealous when she found out about Stephanie. I don't know if it was because she secretly liked me, or if it was just that she wanted something like "it", not someone like "me". Either way, it's intriguing to think what would've happened if I had started dating Anna. Would Stephanie have been so perfect, that she would've overpowered my feelings for Anna, or would it have been to late? It doesn't matter, because fate gave me Stephanie, and I truly believe that I belong with her. It just makes sense. It's the only thing that does completely. Anyway...here's one of the tunes. Oh---oops. Actually, this song I wrote before we met in person, after talking briefly on the phone. I felt some kind of love buzz in the air, or something...so I wrote this, anticipating our first face to face encounter:

ANNA

let's hope everything goes okay

i do hope that she likes me "that way"

even if she doesn't, I'll be there

to let her know that she's got pretty hair

i hope the wine makes her a bit frisky

and i hope when she sees me, she doesn't dismiss me

and when i take her home, i hope she'll miss me

or she'll ask me inside, to gently kiss me

i hope that she won't call me fat

or think i resemble some guy in a frat

i just hope that i don't bore her

hope i don't blow the whole evening for her

i hope she asks me when we'll meet again

or ask me if we can be more then friends

hope the beginning won't be the end

i hope when she laughs she doesn't have to pretend

basically, i hope that it doesn't suck

so my friend, wish me luck

it's been too long, for it all to go wrong

could this be what i've been waiting for, for so long?

i hope that she's the one I need

i hope that i'm the one she needs

i hope that she's my Natalie Portman

i hope she doesn't move to Portland

i hope she thinks i'm pretty decent

fuck that-i hope she thinks i'm the greatest guy-

in the whole wide world, that she's ever met

and i hope that she's my only girl, and better yet

i hoope she's never met anyone like me

the chance of all this working aint likely

- premature ejaculation | tantra +