2001-12-10 | HOW SOON IS NOW

it was the best of times and the worst of times

this is so hard

i had to go back to work today

i wasn't ready

my car started acting up, too

had to fix my engine

broke down on the phone with my mom

still couldn't talk to her that much when she came home

i'm still so lost

it's funny, i told Stephanie I was "lost" the other day, then today my mom asked me what was wrong, and i never talk to her anymore...and i said I didn't know....and she said "you're just lost"...and all i could say was "yeah". it's amazing how much she knows about me when i don't even communicate with her

i want to move in with you now

i want to move in with you 6 months ago

i didn't want to leave

when you said you didn't want to leave it killed me, then you cried, and you were still so beautiful

i miss you

i miss you

i love you

i miss you

i need you

i'm so lost

i don't want to stop calling you

i hate worrying about money

but i have to save some so i can move in as soon as humanly possible

i don't know what else to say

i'm getting a little better

but so far away from the way i felt when i was with you

i'm not as depressed, but i'm still missing so much

thanks for loving me

i'm just waiting

i'm not pressuring you

i hope you know that

i support you, you know that

i'm your biggest fan

it will be fun watching you succeed

it will be fun watching us succeed

how soon is now?

soon seems so far

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