2001-12-11 | SAP

Stardate: dec. 12, 2001. Still sad. Having trouble coping. Finding comfort in love, but finding extreme discomfort in distance and waiting. Normally patient, but losing my cool intermittently. Feeling a little more "normal", though not always sure what normal is. Only time i'm what i'm truly supposed to be like is with her. She brings out the best in me. I'm comfortable with being myself. I'm always myself, well, usually, but with her i am truly free. I lose myself in her. We just do what comes naturally. Quite mind-altering in a most pleasing way. I've never been so happy. I've never been so blue, but i've been getting better day by day. Starting to plan for the future, and hoping i make something of my existence, for her, for me and for us. Mostly i just miss her. It's hard to be away from her, but the most comforting and happiest thing, is knowing how much we love each other and need each other, and knowing that we will be together again soon. So long. Pray for me, or if you don't do that, send me some karma. I'm going to need it these next few months. Love Jon

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