2004-11-23 | (lounge) ACT II

Yeah. I don't know why, but I feel a little betrayed.

My boss is leaving to go work at the fancy new hotel in town, and taking the second in command with him, leaving me with no manager, and setting me up for possible disaster. Someone new will probably have to be brought in, (there's no one in place in lower positions that would be able to handle the top spot in my opinion.) and the nucleus will be demolished.

I'll probably get new responsibilities, and new expectations, and new attitude problems to deal with, and I won't be able to slack, which I believe I am entitled to now and then. (though I can't really complain if I'm told to actually get some work done. I mean I am supposed to be at work.)

I've dealt with big changes before, and I'm sure it'll be fine after a couple of months. I just hate the initial shock of someone leaving with no warning. My boss is a little aloof at times, but I find myself standing up for him because I know he has other things to worry about, but I thought I was one of the few people at work that he may have been able to tell, but I guess that's not the case. I kind of have this dreamy vision of him asking me to come to the new hotel, but I don't even know what my answer would be. I guess I just want to feel important. It might be fun to start at a brand new hotel, but that would probably be overwhelming in it's own way.

I guess when my boss put in his resignation, they told him not to bother finishing off his tenure, so it's going to be extremely awkward going back to work after 2 days off and having no boss and having had the whole landscape of work changed for good. I guess I'm going to have to get over it, though. Wish me luck.

I bought an XBox from a guy at work, and I believe I'm starting to get hooked, but I have a little self control, so I'm doing my best to give the other things in my life enough attention. I've still got Stephanie, and Conan, and my music collection to love.

Speaking of my music collection, (not to mention being hooked) today I purchased what will now and forever be the signature piece of my catalog. I now own the Nirvana box set, With the Lights Out, so I apologize, because for the next few days I will be unavailable for comment. I've always thrived on having any reason to be obsessed with Nirvana for an extended period of time, and I'm thrilled to have a new, acceptable and essential reason to do so.

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