2004-06-22 | WORK SUCKS, I KNOW

Work has been annoying lately.

It makes doing something with my life seem that much more urgent.

We haven't been very busy, but when we do get busy lately it's been like just when I'm about to leave work, or the whole night will be slow then within a half hour we get like 20 phone KKKalls. I hate that shit.

I wish everybody would call early, so we could chill the rest of the night, or I wish it was consistently steady with no rushes, so everyone would stay in a good mood.

My immediate supervisor is a pretty nice guy, kinda one of the guys sometimes, but he gets really neurotic when we're busy, and he gets completely two-faced, and starts saying ridiculous shit that has nothing to do with anything, and it really separates him from the rest of the crew. He basically makes a fool out of himself like 3 or 4 times a week. It's sad. I feel a little bad for him, because I don't think he knows he's being a dick. He just gets crazy.

But whatever. It doesn't matter. Once you clock out you just have to put all that shit behind you, because it's not important. Work is bullshit. It's just a time killer. The bad things that happen there should have no direct effect on you, but you can't help but take it home sometimes. You can't help but feel like killing the entire universe some nights.

I was a little mean to my girlfriend on the phone tonight while I was at work, because the customers were fucking annoying me. Basically I just wanted to vent, and she was being all smart and logical and stuff, and that just frustrates me when I'm trying to be in a bad mood. I don't want the correct answers. I just want to bitch and moan. So I hope she knows it's nothing personal. I believe she does. I love her so much. And she knows that, and that's all that really matters, so to hell with all that other nonsense.

Here's a song I started writing early on at work when we were dead, and someone there was mildly making fun of me, and it kind of made me "the quiet guy" for a while. You know those times when you have to pretend you're not talking to everybody and you just act like you're doing work and you don't even look at anybody for 2 hours? Does anybody else do shit like that, or am I just a brat?

Anyway, here's the stupid song:

You're the one that complicates
sit back and salivate
wait 'til someone else steps up
to prove that you are man enough
to show that someone isn't as
cool as you, now that's a laugh
the things that you worry about
are ones that would never leave our mouths
you live on edge, because you don't have any
you're predictable, and friends?-you don't have any
don't shake my hand, don't be my friend, don't ask for advice, because none you lend
you ask for help but you don't give none
you need it most, that's why you feel like you must hurt someone.........

- premature ejaculation | tantra +