2004-03-13 | THE CRYING GAME

Last night before I left work, two of my co-workers started arguing with each other.

Usually I would just kind of go blank and block out all of their talking, which I did at moments, but something drew me to their intense disagreement.

Josh, who is one of the most violent men I know, started it off by asking Eric why he was talking shit about him. Eric started to go off about having to clean up after Josh all the time, etc., while Josh tried to defend himself loudly.

After a while, Josh started to tear up, and a few minutes later he was on the verge of bawling, teardrops streaming down his cheeks.

Eric started to feel bad for yelling about how bad of a worker Josh was, and Josh began to blame his tears on a girl.

A few minutes later, Eric and I exited the premises.

There were a few minor things that were going through my head, but one of them that still sticks with me is how can Josh, who usually cares about nothing other than himself, demeaning women, and being as manly as possible, cry openly, while I, a man who takes no special pride in being one, who has intense emotions constantly circling inside of me, haven't been able to cry a really good cry for a couple of years now?

It's kind of a good thing, because it means no one has made me cry and nothing that bad has happened to me, but it would be nice to be able and have a really nice crying session once in a while.

Sometimes when Stephanie cries about stuff, I wish I could cry along with her, but I think I wish more that she would never have to cry in a negative way ever again.

Anyway, if you have any tips on how to make yourself cry, or if you have anything bad you've been wanting to tell me about myself for some time that could possibly make me cry, let me know.

Peace out.

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