2004-02-03 | ALL IS DREAM

I've come to the conclusion that skeptics are skeptical because they have a very inactive imagination. Maybe that's why plastic people do things like work out vigorously every day, because the non-activity in their heads keeps them bored.

If you can't take what someone says and make it apply to your life, or at least listen with open ears and mind, and with the optimism that you might actually learn something or hear something refreshing and/or unlike anything you've ever heard before, then chances are you need to expand your mind, and I don't mean by doing drugs, unless that's your cup of tea. I mean by watching the types of movies you think you won't like, and by meeting the type of people you think you have nothing in common with, and to just listen without judgement.

For someone to bring you into their world with their words, you have to have somewhat of an imaginative world within you, or it will sound just like psycho-babble to your virgin ears. If you stop doing what others do or because of how you think people will react, then you might start experiencing things that will change your life, like novel concepts like...oh i don't know....real human moments. Enlightening conversation. Heart-warming meetings of the mind. The type of physical and mental contact that you thought was impossible before. Imagine how much fun life can be if you live it more like a dream. Imagine the possibilities if you don't plan everything out ahead of time. If you take things more as they come, and not do everything predictabally. You can tap into parts of your being that were always there, but that you never bothered to set free, and find out things about yourself that will help you find out more about everything. Some people have the gift and choose to use it in different ways, like to be snobs, or to isolate themselves from the rest of the world, because they believe only their world matters, because it's so much more ahead of it's time, and ahead of whatever the hell is going on in your head. But for the most part, you will find that it's so much easier to get along with nice people who understand what personality is all about than it is to try and please the shallow, narrow-minded sect. Most of the time you won't care about anything anymore except living a happy life and finding love, and experiencinng creative flow of your own and by the others around you. Your job or the way you look, or who you know won't matter anymore. Not in the way it did before anyway. The type of folks you will meet will make you feel more comfortable, and will commend you for the individual you are, and you will be able to relate to them in the sense that you will all be very positively complex individuals. Multi-faceted in a most enjoyable way.

That's the way it feels to be me anyway. Who knows how it will work for you. It may never be that way for you, and for that I'm sorry. I think what makes me feel so good, also, is that I'm constantly learning more about the world and people and me, and I already hope I know a lot, but the constant learning makes me feel so grateful, and makes me look so forward to what the future holds, because more importantly than anything else, I know it will be fun, and it will be different than it was before I started opening my mind. Before I started listening less and less to what people wanted me to do or be, and listening less and less to awful music. I tried to surround myself with supportive people, and fed my ears music that spoke to me, and not just to emotionless music with a snazzy beat, performed by an artist with the latest fashions and hair-do's.

See now i'm starting to talk too much again. I fear that I have written so much that you will miss parts of this that I really wanted you to read and feel, but that's the risk I take in speaking my mind. Even when I've rambled on this long I still feel like I have more to say, but I'm still trying to find more people that will listen to me, because typing it isn't as fun as speaking in a round table discussion with a bunch of your favorite people while listening to your favorite music.

But typing about it while sitting on the living room floor and watching Waking Life while my lovely girlfriend sleeps on the couch is pretty awesome, too.

I guess you'd have to be there.

With a little work you probably could be.

I love Aesop Rock, but I've always semi-disagreed with one of his lyrics. He says "You can dream a little dream, or you can live a little dream, i'd rather live it, cuz dreamers always chase but never get it."

I'd rather do both. Fuck it. I like dreaming. I'll always be a dreamer. I may be a chaser, but I'm pretty sure I'm gonna get it, too. I'm going to get something. It's not a matter of if to me, it's just what mystical magical tour will I get the ticket to, which goal I will actually arrive at, and when it will happen.

Even after I've lived my dream, I will still continue to dream. Because around every corner something out of the norm is waiting for you. Take the good with the bad, it'll be the most enjoyable trip you've ever had.

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