2003-08-25 | FUCK

I'm so fucking mad at myself for being so fucking stupid sometimes. I'm mad at my computer, but I'm upset with myself, too. My computer always shuts down for no reason. Says I'm performing an illegal function when all I'm doing is fucking normal everyday shit. I was just writing an amazing diary entry. A long one. One of my greatest ever. Seriously. It was fucking beautiful. In it I was begging for inspiration from somebody, because I feel down on myself right now. And now all that hard work I was just infusing into the god damn keyboard is gone, and I could go type it all again, but I'm just drained. I feel like crying and I don't know why. I should've saved it. I had the opportunity to save it a split second before the computer died, but I didn't know if the computer would die for sure. I'll probably go back and think about what I was typing about and type it all back in, but it won't be all the same. It will be a poor imitation of my original words. Frustration is the worst feeling sometimes. It just makes me feel claustro-fucking-phobic. Fuck me. I'm still begging for inspiration. I need more now. Fucking computer. Fucking me. Arrrrgggghhh!!! It was really a good entry, and now all I have is this stupid entry talking about it, and I have no proof to you, nothing to show for it, except some fucking anger.

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