Aloha Kakahiaka

2003-03-09 | CANNED HEAT

Chokeboredumb: what the hell does "tisk tisk tisk" mean? you need to elaborate if you don't want to be labeled negative

ataraxiandrift: that one was negative LOL

Chokeboredumb: you make no sense

ataraxiandrift: sorry I keep losing my connection tonight

ataraxiandrift: in your entry you condone people who dont have empathy for others and then you go on to be unsympathetic

Chokeboredumb: well, 2 other people with great taste loved it, so it must be pretty dope

Chokeboredumb: you need to read better

ataraxiandrift: well its my own opinion, sorry

ataraxiandrift: Im not gonna "kiss your ass" and say oh wow I love your stuff if I really dont

Chokeboredumb: it's not about having sympathy. it's about even if you think your life is shit, there are millions more with lives shittier, and there's thousands living in your same town who have it rougher then you. so stop whining

ataraxiandrift: and Im not gonna tell you you rock just cuz you want or need to hear you rock

Chokeboredumb: all you ever do is talk about how crazy stuff is. it's crazy for a lot of people

ataraxiandrift: you never read my diary how do you know what I talk about

Chokeboredumb: it's not about negativity. it's about the way you do it. you like to do it when everyone else is positive

Chokeboredumb: they liked it, so i'm gonna say it's stupid

ataraxiandrift: oh ok...

ataraxiandrift: you think I'm that much of a loser?

Chokeboredumb: no. the opposite. that's the point

Chokeboredumb: sometimes you act like you're a loser too much, when you've actually got shit going for you. at least you have talent

ataraxiandrift: I dont think you got what I was talking abotu with your entry

Chokeboredumb: maybe you don't get what I'm talking about in my entries themselves

ataraxiandrift: I need to reread the last entry again

Chokeboredumb: you don't need to reread anything

Chokeboredumb: you're just going to say it's still stupid anyway.

ataraxiandrift: 1. especially non-homeless americans

ataraxiandrift: I've been homeless

Chokeboredumb: what's your point?

ataraxiandrift: and the only reason Im not homeless right now is because of my dick sucking ability

Chokeboredumb: i'm saying if you're not homeless you shouldn't be complaining

Chokeboredumb: the fact is you're not, so however you got there, you're still not homeless

Chokeboredumb: do something with your talent if you don't like where you are. make a change.

Chokeboredumb: people who go on and on about anything are obnoxious. complaining falls into that category

ataraxiandrift: what do I go on and on about?

Chokeboredumb: just like going on and on about fluffy love stuff. it gets annoying

Chokeboredumb: the entry wasn't about you, foolio

ataraxiandrift: uh huh... youre one to talk about goin on n on bout fluffy love stuff

Chokeboredumb: but you're taking shit the wrong way

Chokeboredumb: yeah. one out of 20 entries about love. what a fucking cream puff

ataraxiandrift: ok I reread your entry again and I did misinterpret it but still

ataraxiandrift: everyones problems are the worst problems in the world

ataraxiandrift: yes people take some things too dramatically

Chokeboredumb: everyone does it sometimes. but some people do it all the time.

Chokeboredumb: and most people that do it all the time have nothing to complain about

Chokeboredumb: especially compared to others

ataraxiandrift: but you know what even some starving aids infested kid who has no parents no home and no shoes is STILL better off than SOMEONE

ataraxiandrift: its all relative

Chokeboredumb: but sometimes it's the most non-problematic problems ever

Chokeboredumb: i wasn't talking about aids patients

Chokeboredumb: those are the people that have it worse off. they fit into that category

Chokeboredumb: but a 19 year old girl who can't get laid, that's not a problem

ataraxiandrift: to her it is...

Chokeboredumb: a guy who doesn't have a good car. that's not a problem

ataraxiandrift: what brought this on anyway? reading "crappy" diaries?

Chokeboredumb: you must not know any real people. because if you met the people i've met, then you wouldn't be asking questions

Chokeboredumb: maybe you need to join the shitty workforce again so you can meet some assholes

Chokeboredumb: some real assholes

ataraxiandrift: hey I work 30 hours a week without pay

Chokeboredumb: then you'll understand why i'm much more interesting, and not nearly the asshole you think i am

Chokeboredumb: then why are you doing it?

ataraxiandrift: I dont think youre an asshole

Chokeboredumb: is that a complaint?

Chokeboredumb: do you like it?

Chokeboredumb: are you fulfilled?

ataraxiandrift: because Im in need of positive karma points

Chokeboredumb: if not, then it's time for changearoo

ataraxiandrift: I cant quit or else Im blacklisted from americorps and peace corps for life

Chokeboredumb: i'm surprised after all the weird shit you've seen that you still believe in karma

ataraxiandrift: I dont work to make someone else money.

Chokeboredumb: that's kind of dumb though, because that's the only way to make money for yourself

ataraxiandrift: I dont need money...

Chokeboredumb: it's not like working for a corporation is selling out.

Chokeboredumb: all punk rockers would be homeless and peniless

ataraxiandrift: earning money and spending money is one cycle Id rather stay out of

Chokeboredumb: working for no money is not practical for everyone

ataraxiandrift: it would be if EVERYONE did it....

Chokeboredumb: you live in america

ataraxiandrift: then it wouldnt be called work

Chokeboredumb: money

ataraxiandrift: it ain't me... I aint no millionaire's son

Chokeboredumb: the thing that makes work suck is usually the people at the top

Chokeboredumb: not the job itself. just the political shit

Chokeboredumb: if you're not a millionaires son, that's the reason to want money. so you don't eat fucking hormel chili every night

Chokeboredumb: and fucking spaghetto's

ataraxiandrift: I like spaghetti-o's...

Chokeboredumb: don't tell me money isn't nice.

Chokeboredumb: kill that noise

ataraxiandrift: it isnt...

ataraxiandrift: its fucking bullshit

ataraxiandrift: security is nice...money can go to hell

Chokeboredumb: money is just paper. but the shit it provides you with isn't imaginary

Chokeboredumb: that's the only reason to work at all.

Chokeboredumb: i wouldn't work if i was rich

ataraxiandrift: but thats the thing, it is shit... all the crap one piles into their living space.. all the clutter and useless junk

ataraxiandrift: I would totally work if I was rich, what the fuck else would I do? I dont wanna know

Chokeboredumb: it's not useless junk. whatever makes you happy is a commodity

Chokeboredumb: who cares what everyone else thinks it is

ataraxiandrift: well crap doesnt make me happy

Chokeboredumb: i would sleep and eat

ataraxiandrift: its just gonna break or get lost or get stolen

Chokeboredumb: i guess you don't like compact disks either

ataraxiandrift: I dont buy them...

Chokeboredumb: move out the hood

Chokeboredumb: or hang around people that won't steal your shit

Chokeboredumb: the only things i ever buy are cds, dvds and good food

Chokeboredumb: i'll wear the same clothes for like 4 or 5 years

Chokeboredumb: until they have holes in 'em

ataraxiandrift: good food to me is a package of lipton chicken flavored noodles and a sugar daddy

Chokeboredumb: well. good for you. i wish i could say the same, but i can't

Chokeboredumb: maybe that's good food. isn't there something you'd really like to eat right now? really good food?

ataraxiandrift: eric made the mistake of taking me to a nice steak place, the steaks were $25-30 each

ataraxiandrift: and mine was fucking nasty

Chokeboredumb: or you choose to eat that stuff above everything else because it reigns supreme?

ataraxiandrift: yes, I would rather have a bowl of fruity pebbles than "real food"

Chokeboredumb: do you like steak? a bad dining experience doesn't mean that steak is stupid

Chokeboredumb: if it sucked, then there will be non-sucky ones

Chokeboredumb: if you don't like steak, it's just not your cup of tea

ataraxiandrift: no I like steak, its just that this was supposed to be THE BEST STEAK EVER...

ataraxiandrift: and to me it tasted nasty

Chokeboredumb: or your cup of lipton noodles

ataraxiandrift: Im way too picky with what I eat, I ALWAYS cook for myself cuz I cant stand the way others cook

Chokeboredumb: hate to break it to you, honey, but a 25-30 dollar steak isn't that expensive, and is no where near the best steak ever

ataraxiandrift: so when we eat out I always get stuff people cant fuck up, like spaghetti or chicken strips

Chokeboredumb: but i know that you watch movies and cds. just because you get yours for free doesn't mean buying them is a waste

ataraxiandrift: and still it tastes crappy most of the time

Chokeboredumb: i like going to the store and spoiling myself with some albums. it makes me happy

Chokeboredumb: music is what i love

ataraxiandrift: I go to the 50 cent theatre... I get cd's from columbia house and never pay them...

Chokeboredumb: actually, you don't watch cds, you listen to them

Chokeboredumb: you can't get the cds i like from columbia house

Chokeboredumb: only some of them

ataraxiandrift: that's another thing Im too picky about

Chokeboredumb: mail fraud rocks. you're super-rad

ataraxiandrift: I just dont do too well with new things like music and food

ataraxiandrift: I stick to things I KNOW I like

Chokeboredumb: your points are just like, everythings stupid

Chokeboredumb: you're so anti-whatever

ataraxiandrift: well it pretty much is

ataraxiandrift: I cant help it. Im open-minded, I try new things.

Chokeboredumb: why don't you like move to the jungle and live off the land or something

Chokeboredumb: like seriously

Chokeboredumb: i'm not trying to be a dick

ataraxiandrift: well thats what my ultimate goal is with the peace corps

Chokeboredumb: you should be in the country with nappy roots, killing pigs and eating them

ataraxiandrift: true story: my weed dealer from back east is one of the dudes in that nappy roots video

Chokeboredumb: people in the peace corps come back to america though, and like do stuff. you seem like someone the peace corps would help

Chokeboredumb: NO HE ISN'T

Chokeboredumb: UNTRUE STORY

ataraxiandrift: swear to god

Chokeboredumb: peace corps comes to the jungle and drops off some spaghettios for joey

ataraxiandrift: no in the peace corps Ill probably be eating rice and bread, which is fine by me thats what I have every day for lunch

ataraxiandrift: except for the days when I have those low fat raviolis by chef boyardi

Chokeboredumb: overstuffed?

ataraxiandrift: I actually only wanna start out in the peace corps but then get contacts with african govt so that I can be one of those people that gets to shoot poachers

Chokeboredumb: the spaghetti and meatballs is ok, but only the ones with the big meatballs, which aren't actually that big, but they're bigger then normal

ataraxiandrift: no just the regular kind except they are 98% fat-free. they taste about the same as regular raviolis except the sauce isnt as thick

ataraxiandrift: I dont like the overstuffed ones cuz I dont really like the meat in them

ataraxiandrift: Im actually thinking about going back to being a vegitarian

ataraxiandrift: Im also goin straight edge too

Chokeboredumb: do you remember my diary about the stupid neighbors who smoke and talk loud at three in the morning outside their apartment?

ataraxiandrift: yup

ataraxiandrift: did they turn out to be crank dealers?

Chokeboredumb: they are the (type of)people i make fun of

Chokeboredumb: these are some fucking dramatic ass mutha fuckas

Chokeboredumb: the cops just came over to their house again. third time in a month

ataraxiandrift: thats fucked up

Chokeboredumb: and the lady always sounds out of breath as she's talking to the cop. sounds like a fucking jerry springer guest

ataraxiandrift: Im surprised they havent gotten evicted yet

Chokeboredumb: it sounds like they call the cops over for mickey mouse shit

Chokeboredumb: i don't know if the apartment people even know, because during the day they're like non-existent

ataraxiandrift: wait, they call the cops on themselves?

Chokeboredumb: when the cops come to the complex will the apartment people find out?

ataraxiandrift: they should

Chokeboredumb: yeah, they like call the cops over to settle like these little stupid things

Chokeboredumb: cuz that shit is distracting

Chokeboredumb: they're loud, i've got cigarette smoke in my house from them

ataraxiandrift: back in ohio when my neighbor (same landlord) got robbed at gunpoint the landlord found out

ataraxiandrift: thats fucked up, you should complain

Chokeboredumb: then i've got cops coming by, and stupid women whining

ataraxiandrift: I'd hate to get them evicted but maybe if the landlord says something they wont be outside as much and the cops will stop coming

Chokeboredumb: and twice now, they have come by the window in the bedroom while my girlfriend is sleeping, and they yell and blow smoke in the window, all because they wanted to play with a stray cat

Chokeboredumb: one time it was crazy. some lady was saying that somebody threatened to kill her, but there was no evidence, and the cop thought she was a quack

ataraxiandrift: maybe you should get back at them... parody them outside their windows

Chokeboredumb: and they were all breathing heavy, and going "and, um....like yeah"

Chokeboredumb: sounded like the fucking band camp girl

Chokeboredumb: "and one time, she said i'll shoot you and stuff"

ataraxiandrift: well I bet they are either crackheads or crankheads... they are definitely smoking something

Chokeboredumb: that would be funny as hell, but i don't have balls like that

Chokeboredumb: but they call the cops, so maybe they're just weird

ataraxiandrift: yeah that is fucked up

Chokeboredumb: the cops know what crack and crankheads look like

ataraxiandrift: reminds me of that episode of x-files where they were on cops

Chokeboredumb: i wish some of my friends from hawaii were with me. we'd be over there in a minute

ataraxiandrift: believe me I know what REAL drug addicts look like... you wouldnt believe most of the people in NA...

Chokeboredumb: i know. cops know, too

Chokeboredumb: they deal with those people day in and day out

Chokeboredumb: shit, i'm not a cop, or an ex-druggy, and i still know

ataraxiandrift: I saw a special on hawaii on the weather channel I think and man it looked awesome. its gotta be a total shock living in arizona

Chokeboredumb: not really

Chokeboredumb: i lived in a big city

Chokeboredumb: certain parts of hawaii are still like old times

ataraxiandrift: but you could still sea the ocean and all that rght?

Chokeboredumb: not from where i was

Chokeboredumb: i could go see it

ataraxiandrift: still see* lol

ataraxiandrift: but you could smell it?

Chokeboredumb: not really

ataraxiandrift: I miss the lake back in NY

Chokeboredumb: maybe i got used to it

Chokeboredumb: every once in a while you smell heavy salt

ataraxiandrift: the town sloped down to the most gorgeous lake. the whole town smelled so good too

ataraxiandrift: I hate the south

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Chokeboredumb: vegas offers you sex more then drugs

Chokeboredumb: actually, druggies will ask you for money. they won't ask you for drugs, or ask you if you want drugs

Chokeboredumb: they'll just beg for your pocket change

ataraxiandrift: the only reason Im doing so well in houston is cuz I dont know where to find the drugs and Im too lazy to look. but if a dorr to door heroin salesman ever came knockin Id be dead within 5 minutes

Chokeboredumb: or ask you for a ride or something

ataraxiandrift: I know thats how I became a druggie, I was giving junkies rides to NA meetings

ataraxiandrift: junkies are like vampires, you cant hang around them for too long without either becoming one or dying

Chokeboredumb: one time this dude in vegas asked us if we needed a ride, and he wanted money. we gave him like 5 bucks, and he drove like 500 feet. then he's like, "ok, that's it"

ataraxiandrift: and dont steal that idea cuz Im working on a whole treatise on how junkies and vampires are alike

Chokeboredumb: we tried to argue but then he got all freaky and violent

Chokeboredumb: so we let it slide

ataraxiandrift: thats pretty fucked up

Chokeboredumb: um, ok. i'll try and control myself from stealing that gem

ataraxiandrift: a few years ago I made out with a hot stripper in a hot tub and pictures were taken of her and I think I found one of them on the net a few days ago

ataraxiandrift: I need to send it to a friend to see if its her or not, my memory is fuzzy...

ataraxiandrift: Im pretty sure its her tho

Chokeboredumb: NO

Chokeboredumb: UNTRUE STORY

ataraxiandrift: dude everything I say is TRUE

Chokeboredumb: stop. i'm trying to copy

ataraxiandrift: my WHOLE LIFE is TRUE

Chokeboredumb: FUNK DAT

Chokeboredumb: do you want me to print the stuff about the stripper?

..............

ataraxiandrift: hmm Lon just emailed me...

ataraxiandrift: dun dun DUN

Chokeboredumb: and it all goes downhill from here

ataraxiandrift: nah

ataraxiandrift: Im much better...

ataraxiandrift: did you know that I go to about 5 NA meetings a week?

ataraxiandrift: and Im actually

working the program... Chokeboredumb: yeah you told me

Chokeboredumb: i'm out in a minute

ataraxiandrift: k

Chokeboredumb: peace and chef boyardee grease

ataraxiandrift: word

ataraxiandrift: I get the non greasy kind tho remember

Chokeboredumb: yeah

ataraxiandrift: have a good night and try not to kill too many coworkers

Chokeboredumb: i'll try. i'll kill my neighbors first

Chokeboredumb: you have a good night. don't kill.....yourself

ataraxiandrift: no problem there.

ataraxiandrift: ok all Lon emailed me was a link to the lyrics to a Nelly song

ataraxiandrift: seriously

Chokeboredumb: that's sad

ataraxiandrift: and the song has no meaning whatso ever I dont get it

Chokeboredumb: none of Nelly's songs have any meaning

ataraxiandrift: I dont know why he would send this particular song

Chokeboredumb: i don't know why anyone would find want lyrics for a nelly song, look for a nelly song, or send someone lyrics to a nelly song

Chokeboredumb: or listen to a nelly song

ataraxiandrift: he was big into nelly around the time I was leaving

ataraxiandrift: cuz he wants to be a big pimpin playa like nelly

Chokeboredumb: why does he call people "dirty" now. oh, i'm sure he's been doing it for years. just like pronouncing the word "here" as "her"

ataraxiandrift: I have no clue

Chokeboredumb: nelly is not a big pimpin playa

Chokeboredumb: nelly is a rich rapper from the suburbs

ataraxiandrift: to Lon he is

Chokeboredumb: with bad shaving techniques

ataraxiandrift: see if he woulda sent me the lyrics to heart shaped box, that would mean something... I would know what it means... but this...

Chokeboredumb: trust me. it's nelly. it means nothing

ataraxiandrift: cmon I esplained what the band aid thingy was for

Chokeboredumb: that means nothing to me

Chokeboredumb: he's still a jackass

ataraxiandrift: I sent Lon a HUGE email and all I get in reply, two weeks later, is a link to a nelly song...

Chokeboredumb: when did he say it was a tribute to lefteye? i saw that band aid like a year before she died

ataraxiandrift: maybe that in itself is the messege

Chokeboredumb: maybe you're thinking too much

Chokeboredumb: maybe you shouldn't be talking to a dude who's into Nelly

ataraxiandrift: moi?

ataraxiandrift: well... where's my tape of decent rap/hip hop??

ataraxiandrift: wherre's...

Chokeboredumb: sorry. i'm still only half way through

Chokeboredumb: you mean "were" is it?

ataraxiandrift: yeah wherre..

Chokeboredumb: "were's" my rap tape, dirty

ataraxiandrift: I took eric to his first all black party last night

ataraxiandrift: http://nellyhq.com

Chokeboredumb: um. you were there. and he was there. it wasn't an all black party, sucka

Chokeboredumb: send me a link to another shitty rapper again, and i may be the one on suicide watch

ataraxiandrift: "Rap artist Nelly (born Cornell Haynes, Jr.) grew up in St. Louis and experienced first-hand the dangers and temptations of life on the street."

ataraxiandrift: how many errors are in that sentence???

Chokeboredumb: well. the main one i see is that he thinks St. Louis is hard

Chokeboredumb: Yeah, fucking st. louis is rough, kid

ataraxiandrift: he isnt really rap is he?

Chokeboredumb: crap

Chokeboredumb: he is rap

ataraxiandrift: plus his name is cornell...

Chokeboredumb: he's not hip hop

ataraxiandrift: I dont know what the difference is

ataraxiandrift: LOn wrote me back

Chokeboredumb: he has nothing to do with hip hop culture, or the advancement of music, or the advancement of black people

Chokeboredumb: he's just a pop star

Chokeboredumb: he's a nice guy, but he's nothing special

Chokeboredumb: that's why krs-one dissed his ass the way he did.

Chokeboredumb: because knowledge reigns supreme over nearly everyone

Chokeboredumb: nearly

Chokeboredumb: NELLY is one of those guys who it didn't reign supreme over.

Chokeboredumb: it's funny that you like nelly, because he is all about the benjamins

ataraxiandrift: so whats the dif between hip hop and rap?

Chokeboredumb: hip hop is a culture

ataraxiandrift: thats why I like him, for the same reasons you like bad tv shows...

Chokeboredumb: rap is just a style of singing, or whatever you want to call it, street poetry, blah blah blah

ataraxiandrift: so why are some people called rap and some hip hop?

Chokeboredumb: the problem is when they try to label themselves. some that claim to be hip hop don't know anything about it.

Chokeboredumb: it's not a big deal. the only thing that matters to me is whether it sucks or not.

Chokeboredumb: Krs-1=good
Nelly=bad

Chokeboredumb: latah

Chokeboredumb: playah

ataraxiandrift: wurd dirty

Chokeboredumb: i'm out of herre

ataraxiandrift: laterre

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