2003-02-09 | THE FIRST RULE ABOUT OVER USED CATCH PHRASES IS.....

When I was young and innocent, I used to get picked on about once a year, for about 3 or 4 years.

Of course, back then, I didn't know how to take care of myself.

I've been harrassed a few times, and been punched in the face once.

Both times I cried like a baby.

I was a baby, in some ways.

In some ways I still am a little kid, I guess.

But not when it comes to confrontation.

I think I'd be ready if someone wanted to fuck with me nowadays.

I have a few more things to fight for then I did when I was 12.

But I would never seek it.

Unless someone hurt my family, or my girl.

And I'm not proud of the fact that I could take care of myself in a fight. It's just something I have to keep in mind, in case anybody ever wants to attack me for some reason.

I've never punched anybody in the face.

Or anywhere else that I can remember.

One time I accidentally broke this kids arm during a football game, and I felt miserable for a long time.

I still shy away from confrontation, and get nervous if I think an altercation may be near, but if I had to, I think I could defend myself pretty well now.

But of course, nobody messes with me the way they used to.

I guess the cliche thing to say would be: the only reason I got picked on when I was young, was because I couldn't defend myself, so I was an easy target.

I don't ever really agree with that kind of point of view, because there's really nothing backing it up, and there's no way to prove it. It's pretty much people pretending they know more about life then they actually do. You know the type. The ones that are always trying to tell you how things work, even though they haven't accomplished any more then you.

All I know is I wish I could have those times back, with the knowledge I have obtained over the years.

Because I would've done something this time around.

Wrong or right.

I'd turn out your lights.

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