2002-12-07 | DARKLESS DAYS

I'm listening to Nirvana Unplugged at 6:20 in the morning....in a dimly lit living room.

This is like the old days.

Except I'm happy.

I am really so happy right now.

In this moment, you know?

Don't you ever just sit there and think, "wow, I'm just really happy right now"

No reason for it.

I just know I'm not unhappy.

Everything feels good.

It's been a long time since I've been able to say that as often as I do at the present time.

I know a lot of people on diaryland love to be unhappy, but I can't help it.

I used to love being unhappy, too. I thrived in it.

I was a lot more creative. My lyrics were a lot more interesting. I knew a lot of "cool" people like me who would mope around and stuff.

And I was miserable.

I apologize if being happy, or telling people that things can be good one day, is upsetting, but I'm just telling you about me. I'm not telling you how to live your life.

All I know is I used to be unhappy, and now I am happy.

Pretty fucking simple.

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