2002-12-04 | BREATHE

Often times, when I'm walking around outside, I forget where I am for a second.

I'm almost paralyzed and can't take any more steps.

I smell the sweet side of life in the passing breeze.

A chill goes up my spine, and I am so comfortable in this moment, that I feel indestructable.

Aint it grand when life is?

I get these same feelings almost everyday when she's around.

I guess that's why I still feel them occasionally when she's not.

She's shown me that it's okay for everything to be alright.

There's no sense seeking the drama in life when everything seems so perfect.

I'm going out walking tomorrow.

I'll think of lots of things.

And I'll think of nothing at all.

It's not so bad not having a car sometimes.

Every once in a while, when I lived in Hawaii, I used to ride the bus, even when I had a car, just to experience those innocent times again.

Tell Greg to bring his Discman, and just marinate in the air conditioned cabin and listen to the smooth sounds of music emanating from the ear phones.

Sometimes you fall asleep.

Days off are so beautiful, because they show you what life could be like if you didn't have to deal with the horrible reality of the 9-5 workday, and the horrible people you meet all the time who are so bitterly negative.

Being off for these last few months has motivated me to do something really great, and try to make enough money to retire early, so I can enjoy more of these moments, and so I can enjoy each and every one of them with her.

Next time you have a day off, make sure you go outside for just a little while.

And take a deep breath.

They are sweet and precious, and you never know when you'll be able to take another moment like that in again.

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