2002-08-21 | A LITTLE OFF THE TOP

when you looked at me like that

and grabbed on to my arm

and grabbed on to my life

and latched on to my soul

i knew i'd be with you forever

but it sucked, that it wouldn't start right then

i wish i had nothing to lose

or at least lived life that way

i wish i just went for it more

and didn't worry about what would happen

i should've just asked you right there

we should've shut the world out of our lives

we should've closed the blinds to those who don't understand

and get filmed, like john and yoko, by the ones who do

we'd give them a little refresher course

on how to be in love

even though we're both sad folks from time to time

watch our eyes light up whatever state we stand in

when you cried, i cried inside

and then i cried some more because i couldn't externally

i didn't understand what went wrong

i felt like crying all along

but i know that you knew how i felt

everytime i look at you i feel a little more of the bitterness melt

i can't believe it's almost been a year

i can't believe i still don't remember how to shed a tear

and you still stand by me, although i don't emote

i'm glad you understand me even when the cat's got my throat

when you talk about those moments in your life that define you

i can't help but want to walk behind you

but i know that we are equals

and so i stay right there beside you

even the sad moments made you strong

even if you don't think they have, maybe in the long run they will

and hopefully i will make you happier

and you won't worry about that from me

because your happiness makes me happy then anything i could do for myself

it's true, i'd like a bag full of money

and i'd prefer larger bills

but i'd trade it all in to spend forever with you

and experience all of love's thrills

luckily, i'll get that anyway

and hopefully we'll have a fortune to spend together someday

if not, we'll still be happy

and we'll have so much fucking fun

no one can take away the positive aspects

we may have to work at gaining perfection

but it's going to be such an exciting experiment

to see how far we can take this thing

we'll make R&J look like beginners

it's good to know that it's going to be alright for a long, long time

and probably forever

it takes the pressure out of everything else

yet, i still want to make so much of my self

and i want to share it all with you

and i don't want too many sad times

but we're both so sweet when we're crying like babies

and we'll always be there for each other when we have a relapse

it'll be a lot of fun to fly now days

even though i always get sick

i'll have you to hold my hand

and maybe we'll joing the mile high clique

it'll be fun to watch all my stupid shows with you

hopefully you won't leave the room

we can compromise on all those silly things

but i'm confident i will convert you into ultra-geekdom

you'll find out it's okay to be silly

and laugh all day long

and not take those little things seriously

because life is too un-long

i can't wait to go to the movies

and make you eat hot dogs with me

don't worry i won't pull the Diner popcorn trick

That's right, i'll never slip you a "Mickey"

I know you wouldn't mind

but why push the envelope

i've got to keep it simple

while i'm still in the game

it amazes me that you'll still have me

even after knowing my dirty secrets

i know i don't have many

but it seems dirty when for years you feel like you have to keep it

it's so great to have someone to tell those things to

the ones you thought you'd hold inside forever

and to have your reaction always be accepting

meeting you has been all my pleasure

i was so lucky to meet you

what were the odds

and then i get to love you to

and then you didn't even reject it

i thought you might for a second

but you came around so fast

you rewrote my history in a few short hours

i guess my staff of writers weren't the best support group

somehow they put it in my head, that i would never get out of that same old show

with the predictable story lines

and the played out characters

the cynics

the sad sacks

the tormented souls

the girls with issues

the non-communicators

the scowlers

the snobs

the people that moved away

the people who came around when it was already to late

but when i started working on the re-write

i figured out i could control certain things

but i still try not to

because just winging it brought me you

and i can't argue with my success

so i fired those idiots

and now i dictate my own dreams

although i've got to stop dreaming it

i've got to live it, it seems

so i hope you can handle living it with me

because my plot twists can be a little much

i don't like the hum drum topics

sometimes i just make the whole thing up

but the reality of you and me, makes this an already worthy venture

so much room for profit

but we'll be happy with the finished product anyway

it might be released independently

but the secrets of how to make something like this work will be leaked out somehow

and there will be a bunch of copycats out there

but ours will stand out as the original

the one that started it all

and we'll stand the test of time

we'll still be there when all the other flames have burned out

and we'll be laughing and having fun

and taking naps all day

and fooling around

and listening to the best record collection of all time

yours and mine

- premature ejaculation | tantra +