2002-06-18 | THE LOST ENTRY

I seriously wrote the most awesome diary entry the other day, and as I was finishing it off with one more line, my computer erased the whole thing. I was so angry.

It was really good.

I guess because I wasn't in the best of moods.

My car had recently died, and I thought it would be forever 'til I would see Stephanie, but, thankfully, I'll be seeing her, hopefully for good, in October.

And I don't really care about the car. I was planning to leave soon anyway. I should save some money now. It will be alot easier.

The diary entry started off with me talking about being superstitious.

Like, I do things a certain way, everyday, if things are going well, and if I have a shitty day, then I do everything totally different that night, then I did the night before, believing I can somehow control my destiny. I went on to say, that I can't control my destiny, and that I could barely control my neice, who is ironically named Destiny, even though her parents call her by her middle name.

I was saying some really funny things in the entry before it was demolished. It was like one of those amazing things, that was going to change the world, but never saw the light of day, like the skin right below Roseannes buttocks.

Anyway, I'm not as mad about losing that historic diary entry anymore, because I'm alot happier this week. In a few months, I won't have to work for like at least a month, and I'll be close to seeing Stephanie.

Woo-hoo!

I was talking about how lame it is that Stephanie and I have to wait so long to be together again. It's still lame, but it's good to know, I have a better idea of when exactly I will see her again.

I remember saying in that legendary entry that "I belong with her, like Siegfried and Roy belong at the Mirage, or in a mental institution, depending on your point of view. Personally, I picture them in a jacuzzi bathing each other with tiny wash cloths, and rubbing each other down with various, fragrant lotions. Oops, did I just type that?"

Damn, I seriously was on a roll that day, and the destruction of that entry ruined my momentum. It's okay. I'd rather be happy, then be constantly funny and creative. Actually I'd like to have it all at once.

"I want it all and I just can't figure out......nothin'"

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