2002-02-06 | I'M HUNG LIKE A JURY?

okay, i don't know how you guys feel about people who talk about sex on this diary or whatever, but I'm going to talk about it for once.

I like sex. It's one of my favorite things. I don't miss it that much, even though I'll be without it for awhile. I miss just being with her more. Just kissing, and holding, and stuff like that. I miss it a little, though. I'm pretty good at it, too, now, I think. I only had sex like 3 times (with the same girl, when I was 19) until I went to Vegas with Stephanie. (i'm 26 now) We had alot of sex those 5 days. It was really great. And so passionate, and sensual, even though it was very potent and fiery, too. It's been awhile since I've been confident with my body, but when I was with her I felt sexy. I didn't care. I just laid in the bed naked for hours one time, not even realizing it half the time. I looked at her the whole time each time we had sex. She said she'd never done that before. I'm so not ashamed of anything when I'm around her. She makes me feel so comfortable. I don't have to worry about a thing. When she looks at me, I know she's doing it in a loving way, and not because I look like an idiot. I always worried about if I would be good at sex, or whatever, like would I be able to please my partner, but with her everything was just so natural. I used to worry that what I wanted, wouldn't be the same as my lover, but she's so open to things. We're so compatible. We're perfect together, sexually, emotionally, on every level. I wondered what kind of music we would listen to when we made love, but we didn't even notice the background. At one point I actually found myself watching ESPN during sex, and I didn't even realize it, and when I caught myself I kind of giggled to myself, I don't think she noticed. I was thinking, sports is stupid, compared to this. I would turn off any show or movie or album to have sex with her. Or I could have anything on in the background and still be able to perform the same. We could fuck to polka, for all I care.

Sorry that last "paragraph" was long.

I always wondered if I would have stamina. One time we had sex 5 times from midnight to 9 in the morning. And we slept alot in between. I wasn't like lustful with her. But when someone is so beautiful and you're kissing them all day, and touching them, you can't blame yourself for eventually wanting to have incredible sex with them. It's not a problem with her. At first she made fun of me, because I would be, um, aroused, for alot of the day, and I felt kind of guilty, because it makes me look lustful, but I just couldn't help it. But, she likes sex, too, so that's nice. I mean, I don't need sex. I could go without it. Like when I'm with her I want it all the time, because I love her, and it's like the ultimate consummation, but when we're apart I don't feel the need to like fuck all the time or anything. I just miss her alot. I want to be with her. I just want to see her smile again. I just want to kiss her again. Phone sex(yes, with her, smarty pants)/ masturbation doesn't hurt either. Actually it feels good! (that was a play on words. I didn't plan it. it just came out. so dont' make fun of me, k?)

blister in the sun

turning japanese

"when masturbations lost it's fun, you're fucking lazy"

- premature ejaculation | tantra +