2001-08-08 | NO THANKS, I'M FINE

this song was written at 7:46 pm on march 21st, 1998. i was near the end of my rope with my roommate and best friend dave. he was really pissing me off. eventually, in april i believe, i left for bend, oregon. this song was written when he was in the next room or something, having no idea i was planning my escape. things are better now.... we're friends again.

"I DON'T WANT"

no, i don't want any beer..

all you do is sit there with a sneer.

wondering why I don't want to hang out with you..

it's that kind of condascending behavior that makes it final...

you're getting no where, patronize me all you want..

All you do is hurt me more with every word you flaunt

digging deeper with every single sentence...

self-pity and hatred is my sentence

all I know is in the end, you lose

with every paragraph you puncture and bruise

no i don't want any wine

all you ever do is just sit there and ask me why

why this, why that, why not?..

with every question, deeper and deeper i'm caught

in the hole of depression and guilt..

stuck in the middle of a world of filth

don't wanna die, don't wanna listen to you lie

lost all the will to even look you in the eye

don't wanna listen to your gospel anymore..

don't want to listen to you try to settle the score

don't really care anymore.....

play your music loud and get mad at the earth..

wear your reasons proudly, and see how much they are worth...

no i don't want any shit..

everything you do makes me sick in the pit...of my stomach

i don't wanna move anymore

all you're going to do is challenge what i do

so screw everything else, i'll do what i'll do

- premature ejaculation | tantra +