2001-07-25 | DARBY CRASH

i wrote this last night while listening to cheesy classic rock radio on the digital cable music channel thingies.

"CRASH COURSE"

if i was in a jam band, i'd play the longest song of all time....just to piss off those fans with short attention spans. but that would only be part of my plan. I'd be waiting for that girl to fall in love with me....that simple girl, the Ani Difranco fan... the one i pretended I couldn't stand. When my friends asked me, I just played the fool....'cos everybody does it some times...that's what I hear. I thought I was playing it cool..but in fact I was breaking the golden rule. I wasn't being myself... I fucked with fate...I was pretending to be the type of guy I usually hate. Maybe that's why it didn't work...but it doesn't take away from the fact-I was a jerk. Maybe there was nothing I could do. But I should've just let things take their course. And I shouldn't have kept my feelings a secret. And asked her if i offered my love would she keep it. I want a shy girl, who's not when she's with me. Do you know what I mean?..the one who comes out when she sees me...the one that hates everyone else a little more. Just because she's like to get a "14 letter" score. The girl who shows up just when i know she will....she knows how to go for the kill, in a good way, with looks that thrill. She's got me wrapped around her finger like a fruit roll-up. I'm hooked on her like coats on racks, like doctors on coca-cola. She doesn't mind stupid jokes like that...And thinks it's kind of cute when I'm being a brat. I've already found a girl a little like that. Hope she never asks for her old life back... I wouldn't like that....

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