2001-06-29 | "there is a light that never goes out"

UNLIKE MY LAST ENTRY ON THIS DIARY THIS SONG IS DEFINITELY ABOUT STEPHANIE. LIKE SHAQ SAID "QUOTE ME ON THAT AND UNDERLINE IT THREE TIMES". THIS SONG WILL ALWAYS BE STEPHANIES. IT'S LIKE THAT SONG, I FORGET WHAT IT'S CALLED. THE ONE ABOUT HOW WONDERFUL THE WORLD IS THAT YOU'RE IN IT. SHE CAN ALWAYS TELL PEOPLE THIS IS HER SONG. BUT I HAVE LIKE 20 OTHER ONES SO FAR THAT WILL ALSO ALWAYS BE HER SONGS. I COULD ONLY WRITE THIS WAY BECAUSE OF HER. I HAVEN'T BEEN THIS INSPIRED FOR SO LONG. I STILL CAN WRITE ANGRY SONGS OCCASIONALLY BECAUSE I GET ANGRY THAT SHE'S SO FAR AWAY. BUT MOSTLY MY SONGS ARE LOVE SONGS RIGHT NOW. NOT LOVE SONGS IN THE TRADITIONAL USE OF THE TERM, BUT SONGS ABOUT A KIND OF LOVE THAT NO ONE ELSE IN THE HISTORY OF LOVE HAS EVER FELT. JON AND STEPHANIE. OUR LOVE. NO ONE WILL EVER UNDERSTAND IT LIKE HER AND I DO. THATS THE WAY I LIKE IT. WE APPRECIATE EACH OTHER SO MUCH. LOVE IS GREAT. HERES YOUR SONG STEPHANIE (AGAIN).......

"REASONS"

Sometimes it's hard to explain, because it makes so much sense to me. It's hard to put in words...what she does to me. For all of you who don't understand the "why", maybe i owe you some sort of explanation. She picked me up off the ground, and warmed me up. it was the darkest part of the day and the coldest year of my life. She never doubted a word i said... she always took my word for it. Even if it messed with her head, we're both better off for it. She made sacrifices to except me...like allowing herself to love again. You don't know how much it means... to have someone tell you that you've changed their life. All the novel shit has dissappeared, and i owe it all to her. She never doubted my feelings. I guess it never occured to her (that I would lie). Even if I had the ability to lie to her I wouldn't. I'd rather tell her and see if she can forgive. I love her so much....if she died, I couldn't live. She told me everything I've always wanted to hear, and i didn't even give her a clue. She's always just known what to say and what to do. I've been waiting for this for so long. Without her I wouldn't know what to do. What did I do before? I don't want to remember what it was like before, anymore. I could give you a million reasons....I love her, shes the fruit of all my seasons........

to you with love, stephanie. my love, my baby, my sugar. i love you. forever yours, jkm

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