2001-06-26 | clear

i'm going to try my hand at a little improv again. here goes nothin'

from seal beach to pennsylvania options keep popping up. when it rains it pours. just when i think i can't find a place to lay my head i've found lots of future places i can crash for the night. if i never sleep again i want her to be by my side keeping me up. i want her to keep refilling my cup. i want her to not be afraid to just tell me "shut up". i want her to tell me to hurry and make my mind up. i've met all these lovely souls that actually think i'm great now and it's hard to deal with. the one i really love makes it alot easier. life isn't as distracting with her involved. unless you want to call her a distraction. the only reason i don't do the things i did before, is i was doing those things while waiting for her to arrive on my shore. you couldn't possibly understand why this works. if you did you would feel so stupid for being such a doubtful jerk. sketches for my sweetheart the monk. the one who shrouds her head with thoughts of me. we have become so much more pure. everything else seems dark and gritty. compared to us, compared to us. jordans heart is broken and i have nothing to say. it makes me sad but i'm on my way. it wasn't i who made her heart this way. it's not her fault. it's not anybodies fault. she was made this way for a reason. i thought i was in love but we were stuck in the midst of two very miserable seasons. i've finally escaped the storm. i've found my calm waters. stephanie you have saved me from everything i hate, and you have just saved me in general. you don't know how much you've changed me. j.d. you changed me too, you don't know how much i think of you. i still want to see you. and show you there are people out there who admire you. i'm sorry all of you, but i have a mission. to be with the one who understands my ambitions. i'll still have time for you but not as much. and you'll never feel my special touch. thats reserved for her. but you'll always be in my heart. san antonio and sioux falls called me once upon a time. now there just part of an extremely cheesy line that i wrote for my love. she makes life epitomize the word sublime. it's good to be on shore again. with my life long friend. she loves me so. it's nice to not have to pretend again. i love her so.

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