2001-06-17 | GLITTERGRL

i wrote this song about my love. i came home at 3 in the morning the other night and found out she had called. i got really sad that i missed her voice and almost went straight to bed all depressed. but i had to right this first and get it out of my system.

"GLITTER GRL"

i go to sleep wanting you, and wake up multiple times during my sleep wanting you more each time. my nights of sleep haven't been so good. i can't sleep long enough to dream about you. i just wake up all the time thinking of you. you're so damn hard to forget. you're stuck in my head. i get depressed, i must confess, although to have you i am so very blessed. but everytime i miss you on the phone, i get more and more disgusted with being alone. i only go out to kill down times.i don't want to leave the house anymore unless it's with you.my eyes burn for you. and feel for you. and cry for you. and they shine for you.you've made my world change colors. too much brightness, not enough contrast. i need bodily contact. i want to kiss your neck while you're putting on your contacts. i want to wake up attached to you. if i never wake again, i'll want to sleep next to you forever. i want us to be happy together. this riot storm is too much to weather. every moment without you kills me more. i'll only get that time back when i walk through your door. i want to leave everything behind and go forward with you. start a new life without fear, and stupid issues. i want to guide you to a place where you've never been. if i ever lose you i'll never win again. i want you to wake up happier then you've ever awoken. i want you to know how much i love you even when it's not spoken. i want to make your life better even if it ain't broken. and i want us to laugh together for hours, even when we're not jokin'. i want to lay next you and just hear you breathe. feel the breath on my skin and have you never leave. i want to take the precious moments and lock them up in a box. i want you to know me so well you won't need a key for the lock. i want you to be so happy that you weep on my arm. i want you to relax forever and let me tend to the farm. i want to kiss you til we fall asleep. and wake up still kissing without missing a beat. i want to give you all the pillows and the sheets. becuase treating you like gold is of greater value to me. to see you like you should be, happy and aglow. is the greatest gift you could give me, i love you, you know? sometimes i can't take it being this far away. i wish it wasn't a phone call, but a car ride away. i wish i could be with you when you wanted it so. i hope one day you you'll catch me and never let me go. when our team gets together we'll be so hard to beat. i'm going to be in last place til we finally meet. just know that i love you and i always will. i want you to wake up everyday knowing you're far from your fill. after one kiss with me i want you to know. you've made the right decision and you're ready to grow. i'll wait as long as it takes for you to feel safe. for me to move in and invade your personal space. i can't wait for "mine" and "yours" to be "OURS". i can't wait to stay up with you for 72 straight hours. and fall asleep in love, again, again, again................ i love you stephanie

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