2001-05-31 | last night i dreamt that somebody loved me

dear diary: i wrote this today. some of it makes sense. some of it is just artistic mumbo jumbo. i just hope it doesn't suck. here it is, yo

"WAKING OUT THE UN-DEAD"

DEATH

DEPRESSSION

DAZED AND AMAZED

CONFUSED

UNAMUSED

EVERYTHING WENT BLANK LIKE MARTIN

I WANT TO SLEEP FOR A WEEK

I FEEL SO WEAK

I'M IN LOVE I THINK

BUT IT STILL STINKS

I WANT TO GO THERE

I DON'T NEED THE JINX

MORE SOFT DRINKS

SOFT, BORED BLINKS

YOU LOOK SO COSY

I WANT TO SLEEP ON YOUR BED

EVERYTHING IS COMFORTABLE WHEN YOU'RE IN MY HEAD

MAKES ME LOOK AT THE REST OF THE WORLD

WITH EYES THAT ARE DEAD

I DON'T WANT TO WAKE UP FOR SOMETHING I HATE

I WANT TO STOP EVERYTHING NEGATIVE

SO I CAN ONLY WAKE UP FOR SOMETHING GOOD

I SEE YOU FROM ALL SIDES

AND EVERYTHING ELSE IN A NEW LIGHT OR DARKNESS--

RESPECTIVELY

THINGS ARE HARD TO EXPLAIN WHEN YOU HAVE NO PAIN

WHEN ALL BEAUTIFUL THINGS MAKE SENSE

YOU TEND TO SECOND GUESS YOURSELF

MAYBE WHEN THINGS GET BETTER WE'LL MEET

MAYBE THINGS WILL GET BETTER WHEN WE MEET

MOST EVERYTHING STILL SUCKS

BUT THE FUTURE LOOKS PRETTY NICE

IF I HAD A MILLION DOLLARS I WOULDN'T HAVE TO THINK TWICE

I COULD FOCUS ON THE THINGS THAT MATTER

I'D TRY TO AVOID GREED

AND CATER TO ALL THE ONES I NEED

I LIKE TO BLEED BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL SEMI-NORMAL

I WANT TO STAY UP 4 DAYS STRAIGHT

JUST SO I CAN SLEEP NEXT TO YOU FOR 3 DAYS

ONLY WAKING UP NOW AND THEN

JUST TO KISS YOU, AND MAKE SURE WE'RE STILL HOLDING EACH OTHER

I SEE SPIRITS EVERYWHERE, AND FEEL THEM TOO

I'VE SEEN BEAUTY IN MANY THINGS

BUT IT REALLY SHINES THROUGH WITH YOU

WHY AM I STILL BLUE?

MY TRAIN OF THOUGHT HAS REACHED ITS FINAL STOP

BUT I DON'T WANT TO GET OFF

IT DIDN'T REALLY STOP, I GUESS IT NEVER DOES

ITS JUST ALOT MORE SCATTERED THEN IT EVER WAS

INSANE AS IT EVER WAS

sorry, diary. i tried my best.

love,

the not so amazing jonathan

(underacheiver)

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