2003-02-05 | WHAT A LONG, NOT SO STRANGE TRIP IT WILL BE

I'm the guy.

I'm the guy that everyone always forgets about.

I'm the guy that always has to remind them.

Surprise them.

Blow them away.

(figuratively of course)

I'm the guy who everyone thinks is "even Steven".

But I'm not.

I'm the guy who everyone thinks is in over his head.

But he's not.

I'm the guy who thinks he's got a pretty good idea of how things work, and unfortunately, knows a little too much about how people work.

I'm the guy who people think is just being weird.

I'm actually just a little creative, and somewhat unconventional. Or maybe you're not trying hard enough to get what I'm saying.

You're the ones who try NOT to be entertained.

You're the ones who pretend you don't know what I'm talking about, but always commend me when I do something great.

You're the ones who DON'T try to have fun.

You're the ones who dwell.

I'm the one who is confident, but doesn't give it away.

I'm the one who is also realistic.

I'm the one who doesn't like to "jinx" things.

I'm the one who is slowly starting to create an amazing future, even though I don't have a job yet.

I'm the one who everyone will forget about, and then say "I knew he could do it", all at once, after being m.i.a. for months.

I'm the one who will accept their accolades, even though they hurt me previously with their doubt.

I'm the one who is going to do something with his life, and do most of it on his own.

I'm the one who doesn't ask for help a lot, but would welcome some with open arms.

I'm the one who sees things that other people don't see...and I don't necessarily mean visually.

I'm the one who has slacked off too much.

I'm the guy who has no one to blame but himself, for taking so long.

But I'm also the one who has always had a crystal clear picture of what he needs to do, even when everyone thought he wasn't doing a damn thing.

I'm the man with many plans, who believes any or all of them could actually ripen.

I'm the man who keeps to himself a lot, but can't wait to show the world what he has to offer.

I'm the guy who doesn't want to tell my mom too much, because some of my dreams sound far-fetched, but can't wait to show her when I am doing these things on a grander scale.

I am the guy who collects information quietly, and calculates it in my head, when no one is looking.

I am the guy who shakes his head when you give people with minds perfectly equal to mine, higher praise.

I'm the guy who doesn't care what you think, because I know what I'm capable of.

I'm also the guy who thinks you should know better.

I'm somewhat in denial, because I think you should all pay closer attention to what I say.

Not because of who I am necessarily, but because of my influences, and knowledge of what works and doesn't, and why.

I am an original and an individual, but I am inspired by other artists, and they have built the person I am today, or rather, the person you don't realize I am today, but will someday discover you already knew very well, while you're being re-introduced.

I think almost everyone else in the world is in even more denial, because they think that they don't need any influences.

They don't realize that most influence and inspiration comes without you even noticing.

Most people who claim that the Beatles, or Michelangelo, or the New York Yankees, or Kurt Cobain, or Steven King, or Steven Spielberg, or Robert DeNiro, or the Rolling Stones are lame, or overrated, etc., will never attain their level of success, adulation, or adoration.

I'm the guy who gets no respect.

I'm the Rodney Dangerfield of diary land.

Actually, I'm one of the thousands of Dangerfield's in Diaryland.

We are all equal.

Some will become nothing.

It'll just be a coincidence.

Because we are all trying, and we all have the talent, and we all have a plan, and sometimes things just happen.

We stand by each other, even though most of us will never meet.

We all know what it's like to be overlooked.

I'm the guy who will be on your favorite talk show one day, telling you about how many times I was denied, before I finally got accepted.

Either that, or I'll be in your favorite bar, still talking about what I should've achieved.

It doesn't make it any less real.

I'm going to do whatever I can to fulfill what I want to do, and what I know I CAN do. And if I prove some people wrong along the way, then that'll make it that much sweeter.

I'm the guy you can keep reading, and follow my path to a potentially bright ending.

Or you can be the guy who ignores everything I just said, and goes on with your business.

You're the one who can take the trip with me, if you wish.

Or you can be the one who laughs at my confidence, or wonders why I care so much.

Because this is my life, and I'm not taking it as serious as you think I am.

That's what hurts more.

I always do it with a smile on my face, and with courtesy to my fellow man.

And everyday, I come across somebody who hates their lives, but has made it farther then I have.

Or maybe farther then I ever will.

That's why I want to stay the way I am.

It'll be even sweeter to share it with the happy people.

And anybody who says that I'm not who I pretend to be will be lying, and all the happy people will not pay it any attention.

They'll be too busy enjoying themselves.

So if you're going to abandon me on your route to the top, please tip your cap to me, if I happen to pass you on my shortcut to the top.

If you think I'm coming off as arrogant, then you've really missed the point.

Those are the exact people I'm trying to beat.

Pleasing myself will be enough, but watching your scowl get more taut will be the icing on my dream cake.

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