2003-01-31 | ..........."IT'S A MIRACLE"

I am in your town.

You are in my apartment.

You're sleeping in my bed.

For the 43rd straight night.

I love it.

Things will never be the same as they used to be, and I'm so glad for that.

I remember when we used to instant message each other, and everytime I saw your screen name pop up I would get all excited.

I remember when we used to talk on the phone until we fell asleep, and everytime I heard your voice, it would take me to a place I had never been before.

I will never again experience beauty in that way again.

But I have and will keep experiencing it in ways I never could've imagined, and ways far superior to the long distance beauty we used to live off of, because it was all that we knew, and all that we had, but, now that I will be with you for every day of the rest of my life, we will continue to discover new ways to blow each other away, at least once a day.

"You're so cool".

I feel bad when I'm not tired enough to go to sleep with you.

But just having you in my bed is good enough.

I'm sorry if I don't spend enough time with you in it.

I guess I've given you so much inner peace that your relaxation level is at an all-time high, and you fall asleep earlier then you ever have.

I'll take it as a compliment.

I hope you don't take me being a night-owl as an insult.

When I finally do get tired, and I lay down for the night, I'm so excited to have you there next to me.

Maybe that's why it's so hard to sleep sometimes.

Whenever you leave for work in the morning, I immediately move to your side of the bed, and try and soak up as much of the beauty you've left behind as possible.

I can smell you when you're not here.

I feel a calmness that can't be explained.

The bed feels cooler, and my sleep becomes more comfortable.

You don't officially live here, but it's still your home.

We are each others homes.

We could be living in Antarctica and still be happy.

My eyes are tired right now, but thinking about you propels my fingers to type some more.

I know it's coming off as sappy, but I can't help it.

It's the only thing I know right now.

My life has never felt so complete.

Not having a job yet is discouraging, but you being here makes the pain of waiting for something to happen all worth it.

As soon as things start happening, I will feel perfect.

I don't know if I'll be perfect, but I will feel like I am.

That's as close to perfection as I expect to get.

I really can't complain.

I am a lot more lucky then I deserve to be.

There are much better people then me who I wish could have what I have, but I guess it was meant to happen to me.

I just want to make it clear that I appreciate it.

I can't imagine being happier then this.

This love is like Chokebore's latest album.......

- premature ejaculation | tantra +