2003-01-21 | ARE YOU EXPERIENCED?

Someone told me earlier today that I haven't had a lot of diary entries covering how my life is going, and what's going on in my everyday world.

Maybe that's because I don't remember the last time I've been this happy.

No one wants to hear about how good my life is going.

Happiness doesn't sell.

Whenever I write about that kind of stuff I don't get any responses.

Of course when I ramble about Howard the Duck I start getting comments.

Lately I've been getting nice layout comments, but nothing about my actual entries.

I wrote a short story in 2 minutes one day on here, making it up as I was typing, and was very impressed with my results, but I take it no one else was, because I didn't get any feedback.

I got a note on my message board about me mentioning my acquisition of The Writers Market for publishing possibilities, and she said that she hopes that I don't submit anything like my rants about nonsense.

Then I tried to write a captivating story, and I got nothing. I left it on for 3 days just to test the waters, and nobody felt it.

I just pretended that it was so great that they were speechless, and so blown away that they couldn't even think of an apt response to my epic writing.

But it doesn't matter, because I'm happy. It wouldn't matter anyway. It's not important. People are just funny that way. They don't know what they want. They don't know what to say.

That old phrase "everything in moderation" is a good way to live.

There's certain things I will always need or want a lot of: Love, music, acceptance, sex, feedback, honesty, etc.

And there are many things that I could completely do without: Absolute hate, racism, death, poverty, waiting for success, etc.

But it's good to have a little of everything in your life.

I've never understood dedicating your whole life to one area.

That's just not the way to live.

It's the perfect formula for unhappiness.

Everyone should experience a little of everything in life. Anger, pain, patience, impatience, agony, drama, sadness, beauty, ugliness, confusion, inspiration, doubt, laziness, hate, love, heartbreak, let downs, failure, triumph, joy, rage, serenity, tears (crying is such an important thing to be able to do every now and then..I wish I could do it more), friendship, betrayal, emotion, emptiness, despair, motivation, giving up, bouncing back, loneliness, being anti-social, being uncomfortable in public, pride, intelligence, stupidness, arrogance, humbleness, etc.

And if it doesn't come to you, you should seek it, because you can't learn, and live life the way it was meant to be lived, without going through some ups and downs.

But you can't have too many of these things, and you can't deny the ones that come to you, because you're no longer the person you were meant to be when you start denying yourself of..... your self.

You can't be afraid to try new things or to fail, or being embarrased. Not all the time. We're all guilty of it sometimes.

That's another problem...we allow ourselves to worry about being embarrased too much.

Maybe not you, but definitely me.

I'm always worried about what people will think.

But not all the time.

Sometimes I'm a rock. I don't know where it comes from, but it's nice to have an awareness of both sides, and to have experienced both, because you can learn equally from both the negative and the positive.

I don't know what else to say.

And that's when we should stop.

Before we say something that wasn't meant to come out.

Something like

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