2002-12-31 | NEW DEAR, NEW YEAR

This is the first time I will have someone to kiss at Midnight on New Years Day.

I've never had a girlfriend during the holidays.

I've never had a girlfriend who wanted to spend so much time with me.

It's great.

Pink razors and scrubbers in the shower.

Hair thingies all over the place.

Lotions and cleansers and all kinds of fruity odors filling the air.

Booty calls.

Sleep overs.

Someone who loves and wants to cook for me.

Female clothing scattered throughout my apartment.

A bed made for two.

Hair brushes and dryers.

Calling me to make plans for dinner.

Watching her fall asleep.

Watching her sleep.

Taking her from the couch to the bed.

Her not wanting to go to work in the morning.

Chick magazines and books.

Long blonde hairs found in various places.

Silky pajamas.

Sharing everything.....towels, a bed, toothbrushes, washcloths. We don't really share toothbrushes or washcloths, but we could and there wouldn't be any big deal.

I never thought I would find somebody who would want to share everything with me, and who wouldn't mind me wanting to share things with them.

Colds.

Food.

Bodily fluids.

Secrets.

Dreams.

Hopes.

Stories.

Opinions.

Fears.

Beds.

Blankets.

Sheets.

Pillows.

Bodies.

The remote control.

"Say you can't....I hope you can"

She's been here everyday since I've arrived, and I still miss her everytime she's gone.

I can't think of that much to write right now, and that may be because she's not here.

I always wake up in the middle of the night inspired, and I think of what I'll write in my next entry, but I just fall asleep, because I'm so happy and comfortable.

When I wake up I can't remember all the cool things I thought of, but at least I'm waking up happy.

What more can I ask for, really?

I would sacrifice all my artistic ability just to have this happiness forever.

I don't think I'll have to, because she inspires me enough to keep that going, too.

But I could lose it if I had to.

I've finally got what I always wanted.

"Marriage is a never-ending streak of one night stands"--Dennis Miller

I'm not married yet, but I will be relatively soon, and I think I'll be happy for the rest of my life.

No matter what happens.

I know what it's like to live now, and I don't want to go back to the other side.

Thanks, baby. Happy New Year. I love you.

"I mean if I was John and you were Yoko, I would gladly give up musical genius. Just to have you as my very own personal Venus"

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