2002-12-08 | LEAVE THE THRIVING TO US
My eyes fight to stay open I've been trying to write this since before ten Phill was on the couch reading a magazine I was sitting here dreaming of you Had you in the IM box Wishing I was hearing you while you spoke to me Why am I so awake now My eyes no longer struggle I should get some sleep Or I'll have no more secrets to keep Keep your fingers and your toes crossed I'm not equipped for another loss I'm ready for a big change And people who aren't always strange My brain is full of excess At least the air is clear The confusion has been boiled down to pointless knowledge And the memories of the past are just pictures I can look past everything now Because of all the surrounding beauty The background is full of vivid colors I guess that's why I miss all the others I'm dizzy with anticipation Tomorrow I'll take a 20 minute walk, just to get one step closer (i hope) I'll walk back and pray to an unknown entity And I'll try to be confident and positive but not overly so I have to be ready to let any negative outcome go It doesn't matter, 'cos I'll get there We'll lay in bed and sing Christmas songs I have a feeling it'll all turn out just fine When I'm finally there in your arms It'll all make sense in that moment No matter where we are If I spontaneously combust, i trust that you will not let me collect dust Loyalties a must, so it's Tucson or bust, I don't need time to adjust Just be there to pick me up when I fall off of the bus
- premature ejaculation
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