2002-12-05 | COMPLAINTS AND GRIEVANCES

I had a small fight with Stephanie tonight.

Everything's ok now, though.

It just sucks. I hate fighting with her. I mean it was very minor, but even a small fight with her seems really bad, because I don't ever want to do anything to screw up what we have.

I never will. I don't really have it in me to screw something up like that. But fights are weird, because they give you a glimpse of what it would be like without the person you're fighting with.

I guess that's how you know you're in love. Just the thought of not being with that person, and just having a minor fight with them, is extremely gut wrenching.

I'm glad we usually make up right away. I hate hurting her. Even a little.

It's worse when we're together. (this one was over the phone)

When we're together I can see in her eyes when I hurt her, and it just kills me.

I just hope she never forgets how much she means to me, even when we're having a disagreement. I tell her all the time, but I still worry about making her feel loved all the time. I want her to be happy forever. That is what will make me happiest. I'll truly feel like I've accomplished something if I can see happiness in her eyes and smile 'til the day I die.

But anyway...the fight wasn't even that big. Wasn't even really a fight. And it's over. So...I'll drop it.

Something I was thinking earlier today. When you see somebody on line....like an "on-line friend", and they only show up on your buddy list for 3 seconds, are they trying to avoid you?

It's kind of hard to keep a friendship going on-line anyway.

It's even harder when the other person tries to hide from you.

Somebody said that they might be "hiding" from somebody else.

Then I thought later...why don't they contact ME, if they're trying to hide from someone else? I mean I can't IM them if they've got their screen name hidden. And if they're using a different name, and haven't told me what it is, obviously I can't contact THEM.

Maybe they keep getting kicked off-line when they try to sign on.

Maybe Michael Jackson was trying to give his son some air, because the air-conditioning was broken.

Get my draft?

I mean drift....tee-hee.

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