2002-10-01 | WHERE YOU BEEN?
confusion have all my emotions been leaked? when i see him will they all come back? what do i feel? what do i say? will it all make sense when the time comes? confused!! when he breathes his last breath will i lose mine? maybe i know too much of what to expect why is the biological still around does he deserve it i don't think so my first "step" saved me take away the so-called "real one" and i've still got a dad take away a step and i'll still have a father that's all he ever was he treated me like a son he had a "real" son too, but he never used those words we were both of his sons my sister was his daughter she didn't always appreciate him but i think she knows how great he was now am i drained because of the initial bad news when they said cancer all i heard was "death" simultaneous blows to the heart i had never been heart broken in 19 years of living then twice in one week first Tiffany, then my dad i broke down i should've been stronger it must've been depressing to see me in my state my dad was gracious with the disease he blamed no one i had to give him space, although i resented them for putting it that way he had to live life on his terms for awhile, even though, tragically and ironically, he was unable to fulfill so much that's why it's time for me to go we never wanted it to come to this but now that it has there is no way it can go on
- premature ejaculation
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