2002-05-15 | CHEESE SANDWICH FACTORY

some of this is pretty cheesy, but i wrote it under extremely real circumstances, on a pretty weird, down night. my dad was basically dying in the hospital, and i was wrestling with whether i should fly back home just to watch him die or just stay where i was. I was really broke and stuff. I'm glad I went back home. It was a learning experience.

I can't get on that plane, dad

I'll remember you always-as I always have

I know you feel my presence sometimes

Although now may not be one of them

We all want you back the way you were

We all want your last moments to be more then a blur

I wanna go to a baseball game

I want you to see me when i make it

I want you to see me when I'm no longer lame

I want you to smile and not have to fake it

Let me take your place in that bed

Let me say to you the things I should've said

Put those tubes in me, give me the drugs, give me the shot

Sedate me like Joey, 'cause another chance, it's time you've gotten

I've done much more wrong then you

Don't know when you've done any

Nothing rings a bell

The devil knows I should be in hell

But hopefully my good deeds will help me propel

myself to a place that is better

For now, let me have his living hell

I don't know where you are Tiffany

You vanished, went up in smoke like a vanished epiphany

I know sometimes you feel me, and hear me

Sometimes it's painful, because I know you're near me

Somehow you can't find me, sometimes I think you can

At some point you gave up on our master plan

Is it that you don't believe me anymore?

Is it that you lied?

Would you come back to me if I tried?

Come back to my side

In you, I used to confide

How did you forget those days?

How do you go on like this?

Do you hide?

Is that your way?

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