2002-02-03 | WHY DO I SMILE AT PEOPLE WHO I'D MUCH RATHER KICK IN THE EYE

I know some things don't make much sense

but i aint under no false pretense

i never was one to make pretend

unless my heart was in need of a mend

i never claimed to be the best of friends

but i've always had a hand to lend

nobody came up around when i was in BEND

i guess that's why i had to start all over again

it's like a new beginning some times

trying to break all the old, tired, ties

trying to take a sledgehammer to all the lies

trying to keep my head up when people say hi

although it sounds cliche, i stay naturally high

letting all the fucked up heads fly by

giving the honest people more then one last try

forgetting all the other ones, and leaving them behind

sometimes i don't know what i'm talking about

it just forces it's way out of my mouth

i've been so happy that i don't even think

and it takes alot more nowadays to make my heart sink

i laugh at people who warn me to watch out

they should get some soap and wash their mouths out

it's funny how the loudmouths are the ones who stink

they don't know anything except how to make a stiff drink

their conversations are as stiff as their demeanor

when i saw your distaste i became a believer

i knew you'd be bitter for your whole fucking life

i knew you'd find a blade before you found yourself a wife

you'd kill other people before you kill yourself

you didn't have the guts to put yourself on the shelf

you had to hold yourself up to a pedestal

you had to be so concerned about being hetero

what are homophobes so afraid of

are they jealous cuz they can't find any form of love?

why can't you just let the happy people be

and admit you're bitter because you want your life to be sweet

don't take it out on people who have a better grasp

take your bad days with a grain of salt, and let the lesson last

there's certain days that go way to fast

but it's only 'cos with her i always have a blast

i don't care if you think my message is full of cheese

because everything she does to me brings me to my knees

she blows me away with the smallest things

you'd be amazed how much joy her smile or voice can bring

and there you go walking around gazing at your shoe

i'd laugh even more if i wasn't once like you

when i was down, i always said that what i wanted was a love

behind my frown was an image of something better above

i knew it hovered above me and was out of my reach

but i never let it stop me from being an unbearable leach

i didn't take it out on any one, i just kept it to me

i stood there with a wall around me that no one could see

i just wanted to take a shotgun to it and blow it to bits

maybe it was my surroundings that made me have these depressing fits

the people around me were like the subjects above

always so bitter being in and out of love

here i was with nothing, and still trying to help them cope

then they would blow up in my face, until they were red in the throat

i spent valuable time like morrisey

even though no one ever noticed me

i walked around in circles cluless about my life

still trying to stop weaker ones from using a knife

i was trying to solve other peoples problems, and putting mine on the side

sometimes when you're hurt, all you can do is hide

you don't have strength for much

you just want to lie on your bed and feel someones touch

you want someone to get you, and feel your pain

but the irony is, that when you find them, it's gone and never seen again

that's when you know

you've truly found the one

just in case you were wondering

i know you were

people ask me all the time

you wake up happy

even when you have to go to work

you talk to yourself, and pretend it's her

you stare into space, because you see her there

her eyes are like the stars and her breath is like the air

she's so comforting like your favorite chair

and all you want to do for hours is smell her hair

i'm happy being all positive and stuff

drop your defenses, being happy ain't all that tough

- premature ejaculation | tantra +