2002-01-27 | AARON CARTER NEEDS TO BE EXECUTED

"insomniac"

my eyes feel like bags of wet sand, with something trapped in the middle

dribbling all over the sidewalk, as other people walk by at full speed

everythings heavy at this time of day

i can't help but drift away a little, while you keep me at bay

i've got a lump in my throat that won't go away

talk amongst yourselves while i think of something original to say

i'm cross eyed like david, on my way to the big show

don't hate me because i'm dutiful, i only have so much free time, before i go

it's been awhile since i've been invited to a party

thank god

i hate saying yes when i really mean to say "do i have to?"

it feels like a chore sometimes, being involved in that whole scene

now that someone loves me, it seems even more of a lie to me

i never really felt comfortable trying to make people enjoy things

it seems so useless, when they're so involved in what every one else is doing

i mean, take a little time to take care of yourself

does it matter where everyone else is going, when you don't even know where you are right now?

i want to sleep the in-between away

and wake up around april or may

hopefully by then you'll have some vacation time accumulated

or maybe you'll just let me stay

i'm already there in spirit

i know my presence is felt

i know you want me there, as much as i want to be there

i would never try and speed up the difficult part of the process

take your time

i couldn't push you if i wanted to

your actions give me comfort, and tell me that you're helpless at times

as strong as we both are, we care a little too much about the things that stand in the way

me, i worry a little too much about what the future holds

instead of just being happy to be out of the cold

i wish i had money, so i'd have less to worry about

but at least this is the last time i'll ever have to endure something like this

it could be worse

most of the time i don't complain

you have to know that i'm happy

i just have those bad days every couple weeks

it's raining outside right now

it's a comforting sound

not as much as you being around

but i can make pretend it's you putting me to sleep for now

and when i dream, at least my head thinks you're nearby

it makes for a much better sleep

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