2001-12-16 | STAYING ALIVE

One day I saw the hugest rainbow of all time. It was wider then my car. there were two rainbows on that freeway, but the second one, right before the tunnel was amazing. So big, and breathtakingly beautiful. I don't usually notice stuff like that all the time. Like, apparently theres always these waterfalls on that same freeway and I always forget to look for them. A guy I work with who comes to work on the same freeway said there was one the other day that was going upwards because of the crazy wind. An upside down waterfall. So I was just shocked at the size and the vivid colors of that rainbow and it inspired me a little, I guess. Then a couple days later I saw this couple walking around in Neiman Marcus and being really playful and silly and romantic, and it made me want to be with Stephanie so bad, and I was going to be seeing her so soon!! I was so excited, but I was still jealous of that couple for the time being, but I was smiling, too. They were trying on ear muffs. The girl put these pink fuzzy ear muffs on her boyfriend. It was a funny moment. I was laughing with them. They caught me staring, and didn't mind. I know what it's like not to care when people are watching you and your girlfriend. A few weeks later I was with Stephanie in Las Vegas and everything was perfect, just like those two. Well, I always think our love is a little bit deeper and stronger, but it's all good.

"EAR MUFFS"

hang in there, don't let it slip away

don't let yourself hang out to dry

don't hang yourself, you're valuable

life was hard, but something told me I couldn't die

hang in there, stick with me

i'll stick around 'til you're sick of me

i'll show you what you mean to me

i'm better off for meeting you

you're better off for meeting me

i'm better off for you needing me

a really bad day for you could be somebody elses good day

at least you survived

in the least, I have someone who loves me to come home to everyday

you can talk about nothing until my ears fall off

i'll pick them up and keep listening

i'll read your lips if I have to

your worst day could be okay for someone else

at least you have a comfy bed

and someones lap on which to lay your head

someone to touch your face when you kiss

love will always give you something to miss

something lovely to look forward to

when you feel like nothing is going right

when i crashed into that rainbow, i collided with your soul

i'm trapped in your tornado, and I don't care where it finally blows

we could go anywhere and still be all right

never go anywhere without "i love you" and a kiss goodnight

never go anywhere unless i'm going too

i'll show you that you're flawless, and i'm better for knowing you

i used to think this year sucked

until I saw that couple with the ear muffs

I saw us in them

i saw us playing and having fun

I saw us carefree, and not caring what we came from

we only cared what we'd become

we didn't care if we were numb

and i didn't care if i was being dumb

i'm so in love with you, i don't mind being a lazy bum

i know you'll tell me i'm not

that's something else about you that I've always got

you're so selfless

you always cared about my best interests

and always acted interested, even if i was senseless

i'm talking as if you're gone

but it's never been more strong

i don't just want to love you

i want to get along

like life-long friends

you'll be my favorite thing long after all the other things end

being with you is the next best thing to being a part of you

i'm lucky enough to have experienced both, and to have it all forever

i don't know if i'm smart, but I must be clever

somehow I got stuck with you forever

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