2001-08-17 | GONE FISHIN' W/ RUFUS

wrote this while being inspired by watching Rufus Wainright on Sessions at west 54th....(last nite)

"DETRIMENTAL CABINETS"

i was gone fishin'...always wishin'....i had something better... Then what i was missin'... I was on a mission...to not be on a mission anymore....Wishin' to be in clean linen, with her....lying naked on the fluffy, covered floor. But instead, i was stuck behind the cupboard door...the one that's up so high, no one goes up there anymore.

I was untouched, and unloved...up above with the unloved doves...the ones with dirty spots...who are thankful for the little things they've got... they never fought...or wondered about what was not...we kept breathing...even though we were distraught....it means alot...to be kind of happy...even though you're kind of not.

I was on a vacation....always waitin'...kind of hatin'...my surroundings...Without anybody i couldn't stand what was around me...the reality is astounding...I'M GLAD YOU FOUND ME...Thanks for taking me off my permanent grounding....I got a pardon...took my face off the carton....heard some suspicious jargon...didn't mind living like a martian...Now we're both in space...It's the final frontier...I'm glad we're both here...I wish you were here for the last 5 years....I was down in the dumps....in the middle of the longest slump...couldn't walk, let alone jump....now i'm over that hump.

I was on a permanent leave

But now I'm relieved

I've been reprieved

I don't want to leave

- premature ejaculation | tantra +