2001-07-04 | "EFFORTLESS"

"I will be king....and you will be queen......... we can beat them...forever and ever...."

"I resolve to call her up....a hundred times a day...and ask her if she'll marry me...in some old fashioned way...."

here i go again...trying to be creative

here i go again....why is success so evasive?...

(more lousy improvisational writings)

"EFFORTLESS"

If I didn't write the book of love...and neither did she.. then who the hell wrote it? somebody tell me. we must have had some hand in it. maybe we memorized it. maybe she wrote the foreword long ago and doesn't realize it. Maybe someone asked me to write the introduction for them. If so why were all those women so insistent on just being friends? maybe they thought as the author, i must have been gifted with girls. in actuality i was at home alone, hating a good portion of the world. I thought if one just gave me a chance i could change alot of bad in this place. then someone did come along one day, it seemed from outer space. she fell out of the sky and I caught her. I'm glad i didn't miss. 'cause i know what it's like to want something, and have it look at you and hiss. but she welcomed me with open arms so i hurried before they closed for the night. and once i felt her grasp on me i knew it would be alright. I have to pinch myself now and then, to make sure i'm not asleep. if this is a dream don't wake me up, i've already gone to deep. if i die before i wake it will be because she's gone. If i wake up and she's not there, convince me i have a reason to go on. life's not life without her...in fact it's more like dying. we make each other happier then we've ever been, and usually we're not even trying. when lifes dark moments capture me i have to remind myself that someday i'll be with her, and all the jealous fools will be after me. not because i'm anything great, just lucky to be with her. i'm special because i have her, the specifics to me don't occur. i just take it for granted that i'm beautiful inside just like her. i was alot uglier before i met her, now i create somewhat of a stir. they don't realize it could've been them if they came along before. but back then i was lonely and such an unbearable bore. they wouldn't give me the time of day til i had the flame in my eyes. we make each other so happy and we don't even have to try.....

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