2001-06-12 | ELIN & AGNES

I was watching a wonderful foreign movie today (french i think) and it inspired me to write this song. Although the two main characters were lesbians i could still relate to them. Especially the main girl (or who i considered to be the main girl) agnes. she was wonderful. and beautiful. I've never been quite as depressed as her, but i've had my bad days of heartache and pain. I was watching Dennis Miller later and one of his weird references of this evening was about George Sanders, the man who killed himself and said he didn't do it because he was sad or mad but just because he was bored. i've had days where i was bored, and frustrated and sad and it felt like there was a huge wall in front of me and i get overcome by this claustrophobic feeling. i hate that. i've never come close to killing myself but i'd be the biggest liar of all time if I said I've never thought about it. But heres my song.

"Elin and Agnes"

each day slips away into another day/and i still don't know how happy i will be/the bad parts drag out way too long/and the good parts are far too seldom/i feel for Agnes, i've been in that place before/but this one is different/i've finally found someone and shes so far away/maybe its a test, to see how much i love her/but your tricks won't work on someone as devoted as me/she's not a bloody headcase or a waste/she just wants a taste of something sweet-like me/of something so good/that's just out of reach/that's where we're the same/i lay down and stare at the celing like Agnes does/ sometimes i want to throw a tantrum, too/but what good would that do?/i'm still without you/stephanie is lonely, but is she as lonely as me?/does she know this love has got to be?/still the bad thoughts can be seen too clearly/but they don't stop me any more/ this time i will boost myself over to get a full view/i'm not confused like Elin was/but i'm stil without what i need/at least i know she's waiting for me/i'm a little pressed for time/i can't wait one minute more to tell her that she's mine/i used to be left out in the cold like Johan/but finally this nice guy has finished first, oh my, i love this love, this love so good. so good for me. is she

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