2001-06-09 | stop me if you've heard this one before

my diary is fluffy, my diary is full of love, my diary is sweet to me, hes soft like a dove.

it's so nice to have a girlfriend. it rolls off the tongue so smoothly when you have one. it feels like a warm glove. if happiness is a warm gun, what i have when i'm in love is an arsenal big enough to stock charlton hestons rifle room 1000 times over. everything i see is surrounded by the image of her. and thats the way i like it. i am more in love with her every second. even as i watched my newly purchased dvd of "the jerk" today i couldn't stop thinking about her. especially the part where bernadette peters is sleeping and steve martin is telling her he loves her while shes fast asleep. it's one of my favorite movie moments ever. i don't know it word for word but its something like this:

"i've only known you for 4 weeks and 3 days but it feels like 9 weeks and 5 days. the first day felt like a week. the second day felt like 5 days. the third felt like a week again. then on the fourth day you went to visit your mom and that just felt like a regular day. then when you came back the next 2 days felt like 2 weeks. but the first day was about 8 days and the second day was only 6 but it felt like 2 weeks altogether."

i know i messed up on that somehow but i've only known her for approximately (i wish i could remember the exact day and time) 2 and a half months and i feel like i've known her forever and that i've been in love forever. i feel like we're having our 50th anniversary tomorrow and enjoying our comfortable retirement. i still haven't seen her in person. but i don't love her any less. i just can't show her how i love her. but she knows. we feel each other. i look into her eyes even though shes not here. i smell her and feel her warm flesh even though shes thousands of miles away. i kiss her every second of the day. in my mind. god, i love her.

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