2001-12-14 | I WAS LISTEN-ING TO THE MU-SIC.....YOU SAID THE VOCALS WERE DIS-TORTED

So many more things I wanted to do with you too, baby.

Wished I would've been more up to doing stuff. I should've gone out with you more. Should've taken you out to eat at a nice restaurant. Should've bought you some stuff. Should've bought you a ring. A promise ring or whatever. Just something.

I wanted to sing to you more, but I damn near lost my voice. And being sick made me want to be lazy to, and not go out more. Plus I was so comfortable in bed with you, watching lame tv. Can you believe how lame the channel selection was? ABC, CBS, NBC, FOX, PBS, CNN, ESPN, TBS, and some lame hotel channels, and a fucking KENO CHANNEL!!!??!!! I can't believe they preempted UNDECLARED and 24 for the fucking Billboard awards, or whatever the hell that was. Family Guy was good though. I would've stayed up for CONAN if they weren't all repeats. Watching WHOSE LINE.. with you was a blast. I love hearing you laugh. I miss that.

I had some stupid morbid thoughts too, and some morbid nightmares while I was on the plane home. The plane ride home was alot more comfortable though. I think the pills helped. But I was so sad. I'm getting a little better now, but things will never be the same 'til I'm with you again, and you know that. But it feels so good to wake up and be in love, and to be loved. I love that feeling. xo

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